I am such a slow loser. Seriously, my best is half a pound per week. Always have been that slow. It’s so frustrating!! But now I am officially 8lbs lighter than I was in January! FINALLY at my pre-baby weight. THREE years later. Not traveling as much has really helped. I have been able to wear my pre-baby clothes for a little while now, which is great! But then I realized that those old clothes are very worn, faded, and just outdated. So I have been slowly rebuilding my wardrobe.
Another thing I’ve noticed: even though the scale says the numbers I’d like, my body is not where I’d like it to be exactly. Well, not like it was. Biggest problem area is the tummy (surprise!). I used to have some sort of apparent abs. What is still missing from the pre-baby me is just overall being in shape. I am out of shape. No good muscles, no strength, and franky, no energy. I can run 3-4 miles at 4:15 am, which I guess is something. But I am otherwise a weakling. The pre-baby me could do boot camp and the Slim In Six series and keep up. These days, the last thing I feel like doing when I get home is anything related to working hard! I keep thinking maybe I should sign up for boot camp this summer. But then there’s the morning schedule conflict of getting Anna to school. But at least formal boot camp would make me commit.
So I have to find some motivation. I think after teaching is done (only one lecture and 2 exams left) maybe I’ll find the inner strength to start. I should at least start some sit-ups. I realized yesterday that one possible motivating factor is that we’re going to the shuttle launch in May and there’s the potential to be seen by my co-workers in a swim suit at the beach. So I’m at least motivated partly.
In all I have about 3-5 more pounds to lose on the scale. For some people, that’s SO NOTHING, but for me it’s another month or so. Adding exercise will trick the scale and the numbers will go up, up, up. That’s another psychological component I’m avoiding. Again, I know it’s adding muscle mass and water when I start exercising, but the psychological component related to the scale is something I’ve never been able to get past in my own mind.
Energy is the thing I am lacking I think. I’ve just got to find it. That and being so busy every day, that any spare hour I get to myself I’d rather spend just doing nothing but watching TV. Which I miss. L
I think when teaching’s done, that’ll help.
But ohhhh when the last 3-5lbs are gone, I will be so happy and can return to a diet-free life and just maintain with exercise (and moderate eating). Because as hard as it is for me to lose weight, it’s easy for me to maintain. So today I passed up the cupcake and the offer to go out for lunch with friends because it can wait until another 3-5lbs. THAT is actually my real motivator. I’m so close! I have a great co-worker who reminds me I can “have it” in a few weeks. There’s time.
In the meantime I am enjoying my 8-lbs-lighter body J
1 comment:
Congrats! And who's counting how long it took to lose it, just be glad its gone! As far as motivation goes...I'm SO damn lucky that Chris keeps pushing me. I definitely would not be where I'm at without his help, particularly the 5am wake up call. Yuck. Since you've been running so long perhaps mixing things up might help you drop those last few pounds more quickly? Adding some weights maybe? even a quick weight workout. We are just starting Debbies Slim Series and it is all weight training. I'm scared because i'm a cardio junky and afraid that the weight training will pack on the pounds but I know changing it up from all the cardio in BIU is good. Might be an idea for you too? And for us, the early morning workout is the only time that ever works. We just can't get motivated at night and during the day we're too busy. Not sure but I suspect you are the same way. At least it gets it out of the way earlier :)
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